28 August 2025

1. Confession

● NEW: Previous Airbnb hosts contacted insofar as possible.

● NEW: Redraft complete at same URL: https://bit.ly/KILLING-WITH-A-KISS_Medium-edit

● NEW: PDF version online.

● NEW: The r/confession moderators have been approached with a draft message. Advance approval sought for 1 September date.

● NEW: New publication timeline (Monday 1 September) and rationale draft letter finished; personalised versions to follow.

● NEW: The Reddit group /feminisms post first draft was rejected by Reddit’s filters. Second draft also rejected for same reason, multiple times. Third draft complete.

● NEW: Repeated Reddit post failures prompted deletion of confession on Medium altogether (22/08/2025).

● NEW: Rewrite completed on 23/08/2025. Draft posted on Medium under same URL, now unpaywalled (story has listed status).

● NEW: The r/feminisms moderators already approached (14/08/2025), but as yet no reply.

● NEW: If posting at r/feminisms is not possible, other subreddits may be approached, but r/feminisms is by far the preferred platform for distribution/conversation.

● NEW: Further publication options may require investigation, on Medium or Reddit. A new publication deadline, perhaps of 1 September, should allow for this; in addition to further confession editing (e.g. omissions for privacy, or image clearance).

● NEW: I am extremely sorry for delays to the publication timeline, which I recognise is both on one level unjustified (having announced 22 August), and at the same time inconveniencing to any recipients who may have blocked time to follow/comment upon the confessions’s eventual publication.

● NEW: Significant confession update due regarding old Reddit account: https://www.reddit.com/user/Onomasti-Komodein/

● However, I am taking widespread confession ‘linkrot’ as a sign that some sources are not comfortable with citation; hence a rewrite was arguably necessary, omitting everything lacking an HTML link.

● Confession PDF to be uploaded ASAP.

● Major upload of journalism and academic work, including essays from Columbia and Oxford, plus articles from icon, Time Out, Manzine, and more: https://bit.ly/HIDDEN-PANDEMICS_Confession-Upload

● Many images deleted from confession due to rights issues.

● Confession title changed to “KILLING WITH A KISS: Sex, Shame, and Social Justice”.

● Confession unsuccessfully pitched to two Medium publications, despite initial interest.

● OCD diagnosis added.

● Intersectional Chat-GPT response to confession uploaded to Hidden Pandemics homepage and Facebook post.

● Environmentalism section added to Intersectional Chat-GPT response.

● Further questionable ‘satirical’ content to be evaluated.

● New section re sex workers, specifically lap dancers.

● Full portfolio overview underway; all journalistic articles and all graduate academic writing.

● Audit of nonconsensually downloaded photos begun (e.g. from Facebook, Twitter profiles).

● Theft section expanded with details of overcharging rent, and persistent under-tipping.

● Paradoxical racist (and at times specifically anti-Black) and anti-racist behaviour contrasted between Oxford and City St George’s student experiences, and within those degrees.

● Anti-bullying section added to confession, comprising behaviour from childhood to adulthood. To be further updated.

● Medium and PDF version of confession accessible here pending requested edits from potentially affected parties: https://bit.ly/KILLING-WITH-A-KISS_Human-Parts-edit

● Major changes to spirituality and ‘satire’ sections, plus changes elsewhere.

● Extensive Chat-GPT ‘Intersectional Response’ drafted; encompassing Feminist, LGBTQ2IA+, BIPOC, Class-based, and Spiritual perspectives on the confession.

● Feminist blog 4th Wave has decided not to publish or engage in any form with the confession, or Hidden Pandemics.

● The expanded confession (compared with 2022 version) which was submitted to Human Parts is here, on Medium: https://medium.com/@hiddenpandemics/killing-with-a-kiss-sex-shame-and-sti-pandemics-bc2bdbfc0120

● The Medium story is ‘unlisted’, which means people with the link above can access it, but it will not show up in searches or on my Medium profile.

● Reading on Medium is possible without an account, but story reactions — e.g. commenting, highlighting, notes, private notes, claps — requires being logged in.

● Once/if Human Parts decides to publish, the article will be fully visible and findable by search engines etc.

● I recognise that all this creates and expands new dimensions of possible privacy concerns. I share that concern, and will do my best to make any edits which render the article a respectful form of radical disclosure.

● The confession does not name anyone, and never would — be they past partners, family, friends, or former colleagues/mentors. No version of any file in the Hidden Pandemics archive has ever named anyone, other than academically/journalistically cited clinicians and researchers (etc.), whose work is in the public domain.

● Anyone who has privacy concerns can request the deletion of any confession section that they believe indirectly references their conduct or experiences, or refers to actions involving me that they feel identify them.

● Substantial revisions to confession, including references to BLM, Columbia student activity, STI surge in infection and dip in testing/treatment due to COVID.

● If anyone has broader concerns — privacy-related or otherwise — they are of course entitled to contact relevant authorities, whose details are provided below. I mean this respectfully, whatever views are expressed, even if I oppose them, since I would “disagree with your opinion, but absolutely defend your right to have it”.

● Anyone who objects to privacy or any other aspect is also welcome to contest my publications, or their findings / arguments, by publishing whatever they want, wherever they want, whenever they want. I am not providing ‘permission’, but instead a guarantee that I will never engage in any form of retaliation for others’ publication or social media activity.

● Because the confession addresses a wide range of intersecting harms — including but not limited to sexual abuse, sexism, racism, elitism, ableism, homophobia, transphobia, and animal abuse — it cannot be reduced to a single narrative. For this reason, large-scale redactions are not feasible.

● While no one individual has a ‘veto’ over the project, all readers — regardless of identity — are invited to offer their feedback. This feedback need not come directly to me, nor does it need to take any singular form.

● In fact, editorial feedback is not only welcome but essential to the broader Hidden Pandemics project. Nevertheless, the main project — including the website and the relevant Facebook posts — will remain online due to the clear public interest in its continued accessibility.

● Age-appropriate and anonymised versions of the confession to be updated using Chat-GPT. These are intended as ‘safe-for-work’ alternatives for children 9-14 (i.e. being HPV vaccinated in the UK and elsewhere) and adults, who might want the key takeaways from Hidden Pandemics and the Confession, without the ‘baggage’ or graphic detail.

● The children’s version includes only broad references to sexual contact and conduct, with no graphic detail or language. The adult’s version is more explicit, yet still far less emotive than the original confession. It is also, as with the confession, unfinished.

● The adult’s version may be a good starting point for those unwilling to engage with the sometimes coarse confession. It is also more accessible for those with learning challenges such as Dyslexia, and/or people for whom English is a second language.

● Further confession and summary updates to follow in due course, but this will take some time. Thank you for your patience.

2. Communication

●  NEW: Facebook Messenger for Desktop for MacOS is unreliable: attachments cannot be downloaded, and read/unread status is incorrect. View messages via the Facebook website on a browser to correct these issues.

●  NEW: Facebook Messenger for Desktop for MacOS is exhibiting password failures, leading me to update my FB password.

●  Following a security breach of my Google Drive account/Gmail, I am exploring a move to Protonmail,

running on Firefox.

  ●  I am now running my internet activity through Apple’s inbuilt MacOS Firewall.

●  Nord and Proton VPNs are not working.

●  I am contacting various individuals by email/DMs to emphasise this new Updates page.

●  I hope to develop an automated newsletter via the Hidden Pandemics homepage.

●  Social media profiles for @hiddenpandemics registered; most visible at https://linktr.ee/hiddenpandemics.

●  Those profiles have a single, simple post promoting the Hidden Pandemics website,

e.g. on Threads: https://www.threads.com/@hiddenpandemics.

3. Remedies

● Chat-GPT summary showing that Gardasil-9, the best HPV vaccine, is theoretically safe for children younger than 9, or adults over 45 (the usual age bracket which applies to vaccination)
https://bit.ly/HIDDEN-PANDEMICS_Remedies-Gardasil-9-Safety

● Chat-GPT summary listing HPV vaccination options in UK, USA, China, and Germany. May contain errors and recommended to be collectively edited, which is permitted on Google Docs sharing settings": https://bit.ly/HIDDEN-PANDEMICS_HPV-Clinics_UK-USA-Germany-China

● NEW: Health community website Stuff That Works has pages on HPV and HSV. Some of the suggested remedies were new to me, such as Zinc for HPV, and the Lysine supplement for HSV. The site is an excellent crowdsourced catch-all for people sharing lived experience, also including mental health.

4. Peer review

● NEW: I am continuing to seek feedback from clinicians and other researchers in Medicine and Global Health, in the widest possible sense.

● NEW: This includes Virologists, Gynaecologists, Dermatologists, Oncologists, STI experts, Sexual Health/Safety advocates, Paediatricians, LGTBQ2IA+ groups, Anti-Racism/Fascism organisers, Disability Rights campaigners, Animal Respect/Defence charities, and more.

● NEW: These peer reviewers will be named on a case-by-case basis following their consent to participate in the Hidden Pandemics project.

5.Policy / Community Outreach

● NEW: Bristol Central MP, Carla Denyer, has expressed an interest in potential HSV and HPV activism. Ordinarily it is necessary for her to have a constituent from the Bristol Central ward to represent the issue to her, which she can then lobby for in Parliament.

● NEW: However, Denyer’s office has expressed an interest to represent HSV/HPV issues at the parliamentary level as Co-Leader of the Green Party (confirmed 7/8/2025).

   ● Politicians in UK contacted with full details of Hidden Pandemics project and link to confession.
   ● Strong emphasis on research and policy proposals, not confession per se.
   ● Politicians encouraged to adopt policy proposals without reference to me, if appropriate.

●  Politicians include:

●  Wes Streeting MP (Labour Party; Minister for Health & Social Care) [Email]

●  Carla Denyer MP (Green Party, Bristol) [Email and reply]

●  Sadik Al-Hassan MP (Labour, North Somerset) [Email]

●  Assorted Green Party Councillors, North Somerset and Bristol [See Carla Denyer email above]

●  GP advocacy appointment arranged for next week, with my GP.

● Public disclosure of HSV+/HPV+ status and confession via Google Groups email to Flax Bourton parish; i.e. village where I have lived for ~20 years.

● Planned disclosure of HSV+/HPV+ status and confession to Airbnb hosts, from 2012 - 2025. Many locations visited, including UK, USA, China, Germany; Hungary, Israel, Italy, France, Switzerland, Mexico, Portugal, Cuba, Hawai‘i, Turkey, Iceland, Mongolia, Netherlands.

6. HSV/HPV/etc Infection Reframing

● NEW: My vaccination 4x against HPV in 2022 would have provided anyone who encountered me after a high level of protection from the virus, since the vaccine makes your body more effective at fighting infections. I reached peak immunisation the month after my third injection, which was May 2022.

● NEW: Key new article found, via Wikipedia, suggesting HPV can remain outside the body for over a week and is resistant to many forms of disinfectant, and hand sanitiser. But a small skin abrasion is required for the virus to be transmitted, e.g. through sex. I was unaware of the abrasion necessity (Ryndock & Meyers 2014).

● Possible need for additional focus on Shingles (Herpes Zoster/HZ), Chicken Pox (Varicella-Zoster virus/VZV), and Syphilis. To be clear, despite possible Syphilitic symptoms in the past, I have always tested negative for it, including very recently.

● Newly commissioned Chat-GPT report comparing HZ and HSV; although currently unread by me. I had Shingles/HZ once in my 30s, and Chicken Pox (Varicella-Zoster virus/VZV) in childhood.

● I am again reappraising the possibility that I have overstated the risk of asexual HSV/HPV transmission.

● These are primarily sexually transmitted infections (STIs), with limit prospect for transmission through low-level human touch (e.g. handshakes, hugs) or contaminated objects/surfaces ’fomites’ (e.g. Meyers et al 2014; Nyitray 2020).

● Transmission via objects/surfaces is mainly a concern for spaces of intimacy.

● These include toilet seats, toothbrushes, towels, bed linen, laundry baskets, washing machines, shared food utensils/glasses and cups/platters/straws, keyboards, and vapes etc.

● Having HSV or HPV visible symptoms increases the risk of ‘viral shedding’, but as previously stated, both viruses can also be spread when asymptomatic.

● Yet other communal places — ranging from public sports changing rooms to hospital wards, for instance — are special cases, with higher risk potential. Even ‘sanitised’ surgical equipment poses a risk.

● I will continue to revise my findings at Hidden Pandemics, though I believe that there are some robust and common-sense personal health and policy proposals.

● One such excellent proposal, in an article previously cited by me and since medically reaffirmed, is to reduce the HPV vaccination age to newborns, thereby averting rare but tragic childhood cancers, pre-cancers, and vector potential (the vaccine makes any recipient less likely to pass on HPV to another person).

● As such, the Hidden Pandemics site will remain online, unless my full findings are comprehensively disproven.

● I will review all Hidden Pandemic research files (i.e. 1-10), integrating feedback from new scientific literature since 2022, and also utilising AI support (Chat-GPT, Google Gemini, and Anthropic’s Claude).

● This is a large-scale process, and I would welcome the input of any interested parties, whether medically credentialed or not.

● NEW: Each of the Hidden Pandemic files (1-9) is a communally editable Google Doc. I may consider making the entire website public-access, although excepting the confession (10), which remains ‘comment only’ for privacy and accuracy reasons. The confession is currently offline per the details above.

7. Syphilis and ‘Viral Fatigue’

● Chat-GPT report on STI prevalence and testing during- and post-COVID is complete.

● STI resurgence and post-viral fatigue could become a major factor in the wider Hidden Pandemics story; but statistics will need gathering and checking.

● According to official statistics and mainstream reporting (e.g. BBC, CDC), Syphilis prevalence is skyrocketing throughout the world. The CDC, in the previous link, reports a 219% rise in Congenital Syphilis (from mother to baby) in the USA between 2017-2021.

● I have never tested positive for Syphilis, despite potential symptoms; yet previously gathered and shared data on its asexual transmission (like HSV and HPV).

● Part of the Syphilis prevalence spike is due to COVID-19, which saw a dip in STI testing and treatment that has lasted since many countries have reached Coronavirus herd immunity status.

● The core of Hidden Pandemics files and data are highly likely to remain HSV and HPV. Others with lived experience of Syphilis — alongside additional STIs/infectious diseases — are probably best placed to discuss them.

8. Legal Dimensions

● NEW: I was ‘sectioned’ for ~2 weeks from 17th June. I was sectioned because two psychiatrists and an ‘AMP’ (mental health professional) thought I was a risk to myself, through suicidality. The section was supposed to last 28 days but was removed after I questioned its necessity.

● As I understand it, all self-reporting by me to authorities listed here will remain on file in perpetuity.
● In other words there is no time limit for a victim to self-identify, even if that occurs decades from now.

● More formally, I hereby revoke the Statute of Limitations for any place I have created victims of any kind, be that sexual or otherwise.
● The full extent of self-reporting to police, campus entities, and rape crisis centres is as follows …

United Kingdom

9. Redistribution

●  One social media profile is Patreon, a crowdfunding platform.

●  Usually Patreon pages ask for donations to the content creator.
●  Instead, I list the following organisations as suggested donation recipients:

  •  International Planned Parenthood Foundation (IPPF/Global South).

  •  The Lullaby Trust (UK).

  •  Rape Crisis England & Wales (UK).

  • LSVD Berlin (Germany).

  •  National Coalition of Anti-Violence Programs (NCAVP/USA).

  •  Southern Poverty Law Center (SPLC/USA).

  •  The Samaritans (UK).

  • Stop AAPI Hate (USA).

  • Disabled Black Lives Matter (USA/Global)

  • National Center for Aids/STD Control and Prevention (NCAIDS China/Gates Foundation) [under consideration].

  • Red Maple Women's Center (China) [under consideration]

  • Xart Splitta / LARA Berlin [under consideration].

  • Amnesty International (China chapter) [under consideration].

    ● I have donated to all these organisations, excepting those under consideration.

    ● Suggestions are welcome for existing and additional possible partner organisations.

    ● Local and nongovernmental organisations would be preferred, in a spirit of decolonial grassroots activism.

    ● Speculatively, I also use the Patreon page to moot such entities acting as ‘intermediaries’.

  • This would allow victims of mine, of any description, to anonymously apply for funds.

    ●  Such funds could cover HPV vaccination, HSV testing, legal disputes, or psychotherapy (etc).

  • This intermediary suggestion is totally hypothetical; i.e. not yet discussed, much less agreed, with the nonprofits above.

    ●  Additionally, a £5 per month Hidden Pandemics ‘subscription’ commitment has been launched, for supporters to donate through a micropayment.

    ●  In theory, some kind of Hidden Pandemics ‘confidential facilitator’ could be employed to aid victims in achieving intersectional justice and/or funding, with full anonymity retained. This is a speculative proposal with no basis — to my knowledge — in nonprofit precedence.

    ● My suggestion of anonymous reporting of sexual/social violence, or anonymous application for funds, implies pathways for anyone who might require them. It is not an expectation, regarding victims, that anonymity would invariably be sought.

  • Further donation-raising capacity of the Hidden Pandemics project could be facilitated through a

  • I remain deeply conflicted about funding generated by/for the Hidden Pandemics project, including any funds received through Medium (summary of Medium payment structure and processes).

  • The more people who read a Medium article; the longer they do so; and the more they react (claps and comments); the more the author earns.

  • In theory, paid-for linked advertisements and/or ‘advertorials’ could be run on Medium by, say, HPV vaccination companies, but this could constitute boosterism and compromise editorial objectivity.

  • The funding golden rule will be that 100% of any funds received, on any platform, will be redistributed 100% to victims of my own actions vis a vis the confession; or perhaps donations (in the first instance) to partner organisations whose mission overlaps substantively with the Hidden Pandemic project’s aims.

10. Hidden Pandemics Website

  • ● NEW: Hidden Pandemics/Updates page made public via homepage button, above main introduction.

  • ● Considerating creation of Hidden Pandemics sub-pages for ...

    • My current STI status (at foot of current homepage).

    • Legal dimensions (with full details as above, plus advice for anonymously reporting

      sexual/social abuse).

    • Donation suggestions (i.e. Patreon info).

      ●  NHS (UK public health) staff are unable to access Hidden Pandemics Google Docs, so I am considering a switch to CryptPad, which has higher privacy protocols. I cannot confirm if CryptPad is NHS compliant until the cyber support team opens on Monday 14 July.

      ●  Wider consideration of all Hidden Pandemics data and files underway. Currently running Gmail on Chrome for MacOS. Alternatives might include switching to Protonmail via Tor/Firefox … but this could introduce further confusion when emails are being complemented by web updates here.

      ●  Any advice on cloud-based document communal hosting/editing; UK and global health security IT protocols; and email/browser security would be welcome.

      ●  Publications file to be updated with details above ASAP.